Blue October - Hate Me
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
強迫自己不再想著妳 我才不會失去控制
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
思緒像蟑螂般四處蔓延並橫行在腦裡
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
掉落的答錄機 突然發現的孤獨
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
回憶快速播放著 愛恨情仇歷歷在目
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
烈火灼傷的自尊心 繃緊的神經在腦裡淌血
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
渺小的心願 只想和妳好好相處 但妳不會再打來了吧?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
妳不會再當面跟我說妳愛我了吧?
And will you never try to reach me?
妳不會再跟我有任何交集了吧?
It is I that wanted space
雖然需要空間 是我提的
Hate me today
恨我吧
Hate me tomorrow
恨我吧
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
恨我 妳才會知道什麼才是對妳好
I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
因為妳 我才得以滴酒不沾清醒整整三個月
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
不會再去觸碰 我們之間的傷疤
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
聽起來很莫名 但是想謝謝妳的深夜陪伴
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
當我忙著和自己的情緒爭執對抗 妳奮力幫我抵擋
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
我乖戾的脾氣 病態的憤世忌俗 妳從來不多問
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
因為妳 我才得以找回自己
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
逃避於是我遠走高飛 妳漸漸淡忘我
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
使盡全身解數 就是要故意讓妳遺棄我
Hate me today
恨我吧
Hate me tomorrow
恨我吧
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
恨我 妳才會知道什麼才是對妳好
Hate me in ways
用盡力氣恨我
Yeah ways hard to swallow
我會默默承受
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
恨我 妳才會知道什麼才是對妳好
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
帶著破碎的心 我跟妳揮揮手說再見
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
黝黑的影子如影隨形提醒我所犯的每個錯誤
And like a baby boy I never was a man
我只是小孩子 從來就不夠格稱為男人
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
直到那天抱著妳 淚水從妳湛藍的眼裡流出
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
於是我崩潰 哭喊著對不起請妳不要哭!
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
哭喊著希望妳再度像陽光般微笑 就像很久以前一樣
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
然後妳絕望般喃喃自語地說 你為什麼要這樣對我? Hate me today
恨我吧
Hate me tomorrow
恨我吧
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
恨我 妳才會知道什麼才是對妳好
Hate me in ways
用盡力氣恨我
Yeah ways hard to swallow
我會默默承受
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
恨我 妳才會知道什麼才是對妳好